IT Terms

AC = Alternating Current
AFC = Automatic Frequency Control
ALFOT = Air bone Light Optical Fiber Technology
ALU = Arithmetic Logic Unit
AM = Amplitude Modulation
AMPS = Advanced Mobile Phone System
ATM = Asynchronous Transfer Mode
ATM =Automatic Teller Machine
BBC = British Broadcasting Corporation
BCS = Bachelor of Civil Service
BIOS = Basic Input Output System
BSC = Bachelor Science
CAD =Computer Aided Design
CAM= Computer Aided Manufacturing
CAT = Computerize Axial Tomography
CATV = Community Antenna Television
CCTV = Close Circuit Television
CD = Compact Disk
CDMA= Code Deviation Multiple Access
COMSAT= Communication Satellite Corporation
CPU=Central Processing Unit
CSE = Computer Science & Engineering
DC =Direct Current
DCS = Digital Cellular Service
DIAC = Diode on Ac
DME = Distance Measuring Equipments
DNA=Dioxyribo Nucleic Acid
ECG = Electroencephalography
EEE = Electrical & Electronics Engineering
ETE = Electronics & Telecommunication Engineering
EEPROM = Electrical Erasable Programmable Read Only Memory
EIA = Electronic Industries Association
EMG =Electromyography
EPROM = Erasable Programmable Read Only Memory
FDDI= Fiber Distributed Digital Interface
FDM = Frequency Division Multiplexing
FDMA = Frequency Division Multiple Access
FET = Field Effect Transistor
FIFO = First In First Out
FM = Frequency Modulation
FTP= File Transfer Protocol
GCS = Global Communication System
GPS = Global Positioning system
GSM = Global System for Mobile Communication
HD= High Definition
HRD= Human Resource Development
HTML = Hyper Text Markup Language
HTTP = Hyper Text Transfer Protocol
IF = Intermediate Frequency
INTELAST = International Telecommunication Satellite
Organization
IP= Internet Protocol
IPS = Interruptible Power Supply
IRC= Internet Relay Chat
ISD = International Subscriber Dialing
ISO= International Standard Organization
ISP = Internet Service Provider
JPEG= Joint Photographic Expert Group
KB = Kilo byte
KBPS= Kilo byte per second
KG = Kilo Gram
LAN = Local Area Network
LASCR = Light Activated Silicon Control Rectifier
LASER = Light Amplification by Stimulated Emission of Radiation.
LCD = Liquid Crystal Display
LED= Light Emitting Diode
LIFO = Last In First Out
LNA = Low Noise Amplifier
MAN = Metropolitan Area Network
MASER =Microwave Amplification by Stimulated Emission of
Radiation
MB = Mega Byte
MCT = Moss Control Thyristar
MODEM= Modulator demodulator
MOSFET = Metal Oxide Semiconductor Field Effect Transistor
MPEG = Moving Photographic Expert Group
NASA = National Aeronautics and Space Administration
NFS = Network File System
NWD = National Wide Dialing
OOP = Object Oriented Programming
OSI= Open System Interconnection
PAL = Phase Alternation Line
PC = Personal Computer
PCB = Printed Circuit Board
PCM= Pulse Code Modulation
PDC = Personal Digital Cellular
PID= Proportional, Derivative, Integral
PIN = Personal Identify Number
PLC = Programmable Logic Controller
PROM = Programmable Read Only Memory
PUK= PIN Unblocking Key
PVC = Polyvinyl chloride
PWM = Pulse Width Modulation
QAM = Quartered Amplitude Modulation
RADAR = Radio Detection and Ranging
RAM= Random Access Memory
RF= Radio Frequency
ROM = Read Only Memory
RPM= Rotation per Minute
SCR = Silicon Control Rectifier
SDMA = Space Division Multiple Access
SIM= Subscriber Identify Module
SIT = Static Induction Transistor
SITH= Static Induction Thyristor
SMD = Surface Mounded Device
SMPS = Switching Mode Power Supply
SMS = Short Message Service
SMT= Surface Mounded Technology
SONET = Synchronous Optical Fiber Network
TCP = Transmission Control Protocol
TDMA = Time Division Multiple Access
TENS= Transcutaneous Electric Nerve Stimulation
TRIAC= Triode on Ac
TV= Tele Vision
UHF = Ultra High Frequency
UPS = Uninterruptible Power Supply
URL = Universal Resource Locator
VCD = Video Compact Disk
VGA = Video Graphic Analyzer
VHF = Very High Frequency
VOIP = Voice Over Internet Protocol
VSAT = Very Small Aperture Terminals
WAN = Wide Area Network
WAP= Wireless Application Protocol
WiMAX = Worldwide Interoperability for Microwave Access
WWW= World Wide Web
XML = Extended Markup Language

You Should (Not) Date A Writer

SEP. 11, 2012 By TRAVIS GRANDT

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Action verbs. He employs the use of action verbs when practicing his craft. Action verbs invoke the feeling of movement and importance. He was so used to passive verbs before. Outside the page, the world was passing him by. But now, on the page at least, he commands these words and creates a clear picture of exactly what he wants. When you walk to the table, he stands and smiles. He steps forward to pull the chair out as you sit down. He carefully places his fingers around the rim of his glass and meets your eyes before he drinks.

Writers use action words because they make it easier for you to picture yourself doing them.

Introspection. He writes, but he does not write for a living. People are rarely afforded the great luxury of relying on their truest talent for income, but he tells you that he writes. He calls himself a schoolteacher, but he tells you that he writes. Then he asks you, while he takes a coaster and places it under his cocktail, what a person truly is. He asks you if a person is who they say they are or what it isthey do.

Writers make you think because they want to stay with you long after they’ve left.

Metamorphosis. He shares titles but not details. He coolly laughs and tells you that his pieces are personal and that you will have to read them yourself. When you ask why strangers can read them but you cannot, he takes another sip from his cocktail and moves the coaster a bit closer to himself so he can lean back as he informs you that you are no longer a stranger.

Writers invoke change in their characters because they want you to believe that you — or they — can.

Skilled. His vocabulary is extremely eloquent and he boasts a better barroom disposition than you have experienced in the last — I don’t know how many years. The feeling that begins to flutter, flurry, and fly through your chest is unequivocal. He orders something unusual, like a Black Russian or a Tom Collins, and when you request a beer he says that surely a complex woman deserves a complex drink. You let the Cosmopolitan burn your throat.

Writers equip themselves with words for the same reason a knight fortifies his armor.

Characterization. When he offers his place to stay for the night he already knows how far you have to go to make it home, he already expects the excuse fumbled over your lips and when you think your feet fail you he puts his hand out and your fingers grip his palm. He smiles and in this smile you can see the weaknesses he spent the whole night hiding. You look into his eyes and see the compassion he really holds. He knew this is what would win you over and he knew this would be the point in the night you decided to sleep with him. When you slip your hand into his hand, your arm under his shoulders and your tongue into his mouth, he expected every moment.

He knows you because he wrote you. He created you. You are his.

18 Things Every Person Must Do In Their Lifetime

18 Things Every Person Must Do In Their Lifetime

OCT. 6, 2013 By BRIANNA WIEST

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1. Accept that there will be whole swaths of you that will always seem like a mystery. There will be things that may never make sense. There will be questions that may always go unanswered. Despite this, you must stop questioning the steady sense of knowing your body somehow delivers to you anyway. Even when logic would seem to defeat it, and your mind is combatting it furiously. That knowing is your truth. That knowing is what you have to act on without sound reason. We call this the leap of faith. Learn to take it.

2. Learn what it means to have radical empathy. Realize that underneath it all we are the same. We have all suffered. We have all known loss, heartbreak, grief, sadness, tragedy and misfortune, all in the uniqueness of our own experiences. You may not know what someone’s story is but you do know what it feels like to have a knife going through you when you lose someone you love. What it’s like to be completely alone and thwarted from society. You always have the ability to understand people at that very raw, human level. It’s only a matter of how much you’re willing to see yourself in them.

3. If you love someone, freaking tell them. Write it on notes next to their bed and in journals that they’ll one day find and interrupt their sentences with it if you have to. There is nothing more important than being vocal about loving someone. You want to know the truth? We are all starving for love and acceptance and if you love someone you need to tell them that without being afraid that they don’t love you as much, or at all. That’s not love. That’s greed. That’s neediness. That’s the desire for affirmation and attention. Love, in its purest, untapped form, does not hinge on the requirement that they’ll love you in return.

4. Let loving someone or not loving someone be enough in deciding whether or not you want to be with them. The rest are augmentable details. But that core is unchanging.

5. Have a verifiably effective plan for coping with emotional pain. Sometimes wicked anxiety crops up out of nowhere. Some days we’ll be just going along our way and then all of a sudden all of the issues of our childhood come sweeping back through us like we never grew out of them and we panic and hold onto them because we don’t know how to let go because it seems like doing so will give them the power to sneak up on us again. In these moments, you need a friend to call and a shoulder to lean on and a playlist to blast and a journal to write in. And somewhere in that journal, you need to have written: “this too shall pass.”

6. Stop trying to convince people to love you. With what you wear, in sullied comments that dig for their appreciation, in how your interests have forcefully evolved to complement or mirror those of whom you are so desperately trying to win over. Stop doing things so you’ll be regarded highly in other people’s opinions. That won’t make them love you more. It will only drive you farther away from yourself.

7. Learn to say sorry and mean it. Realize that what most wisdom stems from is forgiveness: for ourselves, for others, for what happened and for what’s missing, for what’s unstable and what’s gone unacknowledged. Realize that you won’t always receive an apology and you still may have to find forgiveness anyway. Realize that’s the only way to understand just how powerful a genuine apology can be.

8. Write lists and make goals and always keep yourself moving toward something. Joy is in the moment, but hope is in tomorrow. It’s a fine balance that takes lifetimes to perfect. Don’t feel bad if you err toward one mindset or another. Just don’t forget that when you do fall too deeply into focusing on today or tomorrow, that you always have the other option.

9. Accept that while most things end up okay, not everything does. Some things may dig themselves into you and you’ll carry them through your whole life. Sometimes things go mysteriously unresolved. Sometimes you’ll fight hard and lose. Sometimes you’ll be so far in denial that acceptance isn’t something you start to approach for years. It’s important to be okay with not being okay. It’s part of the human condition. It’s very beautiful if you let it show you a deeper route into yourself.

10. Stand up for what’s just. Stand up for love and stand up for equality and respect. Don’t be a bystander in someone else’s life but more importantly, don’t be a bystander in your own.

11. Let yourself be useless sometimes. You can’t spend your entire life reveling in achievement. In fact, you’ll spend most of your days on your knees grappling with what you’re most passionate about. You’ll turn up on the other side eventually, but not without days upon days of climbing.

12. Say thank you even when you don’t feel gratitude. It’s not that you shouldn’t feel it, but sometimes you just might not. But saying “thank you” is one of those rare things in which you do entirely for the other person. Saying thank you doesn’t help you. It helps the other person want to give again. You won’t understand what “thank you” means until it’s given to you after you’ve truly given to someone else. Foster that for other people and keep the cycle going. It will come back to you eventually.

13. Never go into anything thinking you are entitled to it because you are talented, because you have suffered for it or because it’s time for the universe to cater to your needs just this once. This will never be the truth.

14. Buy a notebook. Write down what you want. Write down what hurts you. Show it to someone you love. Save it for your children. Burn it in your backyard. Either way, go to bed knowing that in some way, those things are out of you.

15. Know the difference between the limits that withhold you and the limits that are crucial for you to obey. Draw your lines accordingly. Live your life around them.

16. Learn to comfort someone. Head nods and “I understands” won’t mean jack shit when someone is really in the depths of something. If you love someone, know when it’s time to order their favorite food and hold their hand the way they like and respond in the way they are looking to be responded to. Sometimes it’s with empathy and understanding, sometimes it’s with problem-solving mechanisms and jokes to lighten things. You won’t know unless you know someone thoroughly. There are reasons people don’t just look to anybody when they’re really in need. These are them.

17. Learn to enjoy talking about something that doesn’t come at the expense of someone else.

18. Realize how important it is to mourn properly. This means letting yourself be a whole big ball of effing mess now and again. Things and people will phase in and out as scheduled. You can’t keep holding on for their return because most often, they won’t come. But that withholding will shape you, and it will shape you through your own self-induced pain and suffering. If you don’t want that to be your story, write it a different way. It starts with saying goodbye to what’s not meant for us and what’s left inexplicably. Your quality of life will completely depend on how well you embrace this. Choose wisely. TC Mark

From Thought Catalog: 31 Great Quotes About Being In Your 20s

31 Great Quotes About Being In Your 20s

JUN. 7, 2013 

By BRANDON GORRELL

I think your 20s are the hardest part of life. I mean, everyone goes on about how hard it is to be a teenager, but actually I think it’s tougher to be in your 20s because you’re expected to be a grownup and expected to earn your own living and be successful and I think you feel like a kid still. Nigel Cole

Every woman in her late 20s goes through a period where she just doesn’t believe love is out there anymore, but it is. And I think the minute you stop looking for it is when it comes for you.Kristen Bell

There’s an ‘Everything must go!’ emotional liquidation feel to the end of your twenties, isn’t there? What will happen if we turn thirty and we’re not ‘ready?’ You don’t feel entirely settled in any aspect of your life, even if you are on paper. Sloane Crosley

22 is basically the only age you can use as leverage. Meaning that because it’s the exact age between life-as-you-know-it and what will later be known as ‘real life’ (that’s scientifically proven, of course), people expect you to make some mistakes. Mistakes like overcooking a pot-roast or dating someone who may not be right for you. And that’s okay, because heck, you’re just 22. Shanelle Kaul

I’m never so sure as I was in my mid-20s. Meryl Streep

20-somethings have the tendency to imagine that their 20s are the last chance they’re going to have to experiment, explore, and party. This is a false premise. Restaurants and cafes continue to let people over 29 through their doors. They even serve them alcohol. Holden Desalles

Start your twenties with a lot of friends and leave with a few good ones. What happened? People faded away into their careers and relationships. Fights were had and never resolved. Shit happens. Ryan O’Connell

When I was in my twenties, it felt like I was riding wild horses, and I was hoping I didn’t go over a cliff. Chaka Khan

26 shows up in the middle of coffee one morning and hands you a freshly printed memo that reads: “You’re going to get old one day and die. You’re cool for now, but it will happen. You’re officially on notice. You won’t be young forever.” And then 26 struts out of your office, like an unconcerned dick, having nonchalantly just changed your entire perspective. Jessica Blankenship

I like getting older. When you’re in your twenties you’re really forging for your future. Things take shape later on. Crispin Glover

The path to whatever your notion of success is will likely not be linear. Don’t take continuous personal growth for granted. Just because you’re older doesn’t necessarily mean you’re wiser. Your 20s will be full of failures — let them happen and learn as you go. Holden Desalles

When you’re single and in your 20s, you throw on a pair of jeans and look fabulous. Sheena Easton

When you’re in your early 20s your love life seems to explode every 20 minutes or so. By the time you’ve reached your thirties, it is every five or ten years. Patrick Marber

The thing I love most about my generation — and something that rarely gets recognized — is that we’re fucking hustlers. We make it work. We get that money. We’re innovative and resourceful. The odds may be stacked against us and yet we still find a way to triumph. Ryan O’Connell

[S]pend your twenties learning how to mentally block out trend pieces about the importance of reaching specific life milestones in a timely fashion. Gabrielle Moss

Your 20s are not by default the only time in your life that you can pick up and go, or that you can try out different careers. The space where comfort and risk come together is a space where learning and growing are most likely to happen. If you get set in your ways and become unsatisfied but comfortable, you’ll never learn anything different unless you’re willing to put yourself in a scary position. Holden Desalles

At 27, I can talk to my parents and see that while they’ve done a lot of amazing things with their lives, there are still doubts and insecurities that they’re holding on to and trying to make sense of. Answers don’t come with age. Age provides perspective, but life wasn’t designed with a point at which it definitively gets easier.Jana Eleanor

Remember in your late teens and early 20s when your friends would get knocked up and you’d be like, HA-HA, sucker! Have fun milking your boobs while I hit ~da club~? Well, here’s your karmic payback: age appropriate people are tying the knot left and right and YOU’RE NOT ONE OF THEM. Stephanie Georgopulos

In your twenties, if you have any amount of complexity in your childhood, or any trauma that you haven’t dealt with, it comes out. That’s why you have a lot of artists that don’t make it through. Jeremy Sisto

Positive, healthy, loving relationships in your twenties… I don’t know if anyone would disagree with it: I think they’re the exception, not the norm. People are either playing house really aggressively because they’re scared of what an uncertain time it is, or they’re avoiding commitment altogether. Lena Dunham

I lived my twenties in a very public manner and if anyone’s twenties are documented it’s not always going to be pretty. Sienna Miller

I think, for the majority of my twenties, I was always so concerned with what I didn’t have, or what I still wanted. Adam Lambert

I feel like you don’t know if someone’s equipped for a romantic relationship until they’re out of their twenties. Lena Dunham

[H]appiness comes out of being willing to do your work in your twenties to find out who you are, what you love. Candace Bushnell

In my early twenties, I had no idea who I was. And I think that’s one reason you should try different relationships. I’ve had good and bad ones, but I took away things from them that helped me become who I am. Cobie Smulders

I look back on my 20s. It’s supposed to be the prime of your life, the most vital, the most beautiful. But you’re making your critical decisions and sometimes your most critical mistakes. Ann Brashares

I thought I knew everything about love and relationships in my 20s, the ignorance of youth is bliss. As you get older, you start to realise that you dont really know anything and life is a great traveling journey. Life is unexpected…you just never know whats going to happen. Reese Witherspoon

As a kid I had dreams about being successful, thinking it would be cool. Then, when I was in my 20s, I really thought I had it much more figured out than I do now. Ben Stiller

You go through different phases and points in your life and thats interesting. Someone may turn 40 and be thrilled to be out of their 30s, you know, but I dont think about it a lot. I feel younger than I did years ago. I have a better sense of myself and what I’m willing to accept in personal and business relationships. That can only come with age, so I value the toll those years have taken on me for the positive aspects theyve brought. I wouldnt want to relive the drama of my early 20s because those were very angst-ridden. Adrien Brody

All I’m saying is that when you’re in your 20s, it’s easy to sit in your ivory tower/ seventh story walk-up apartment and talk about what you’ll want in ten years. There are plenty of things I never thought about wanting ten years ago that are very important to me now. Health insurance, for one… It just seems shortsighted when people are like: “Of course I don’t want kids. I have red wine and/ or Xbox and 1,300 Twitter followers, and that’s all I’ll ever need.” I’m keeping my options open. Josh Gondelman

Once I hit 25 and exited the coveted 18-24 age bracket, I was like, “Whatevs. Just wake me when I’m 30.” 26 doesn’t feel much different than 25. They seem interchangeable. They leave the same impression. Both feel very young adult.Ryan O’Connell

From Thought Catalog: 30 Greatest Quotes About Women

30 Greatest Quotes About Women

APR. 26, 2013

By CHARLIE MORRIGAN

There are only three things to be done with a woman. You can love her, suffer for her, or turn her into literature. Henry Miller

Being a woman is a terribly difficult task, since it consists principally in dealing with men.Joseph Conrad

I want to do it because I want to do it. Women must try to do things as men have tried. When they fail, their failure must be but a challenge to others. Amelia Earhart

Women kill me. They really do. I don’t mean I’m oversexed or anything like that — although I am quite sexy. I just like them, I mean. They’re always leaving their goddam bags out in the middle of the aisle. J.D. Salinger

And yet women — good women — frightened me because they eventually wanted your soul, and what was left of mine, I wanted to keep.Charles Bukowski

As usual, there is a great woman behind every idiot. John Lennon

Why are women… so much more interesting to men than men are to women? Virginia Woolf

An elegant woman is a woman who despises you and has no hair under her arms. Salvador Dalí

Be not ashamed women, … You are the gates of the body, and you are the gates of the soul.Walt Whitman

The trouble with some women is that they get all excited about nothing — and then marry him. Cher

The only way a woman can ever reform a man is by boring him so completely that he loses all possible interest in life. Oscar Wilde

I like intelligent women. When you go out, it shouldn’t be a staring contest. Frank Sinatra

Women must tell men always that they are the strong ones. They are the big, the strong, the wonderful. In truth, women are the strong ones. It is just my opinion, I am not a professor. Coco Chanel

I do not wish women to have power over men; but over themselves. Mary Wollstonecraft

Women think with their whole bodies and they see things as a whole more than men do.Dorothy Day

Men are by nature merely indifferent to one another; but women are by nature enemies.Arthur Schopenhauer

In love, women are professionals, men are amateurs. Francois Truffaut

Why is it men are permitted to be obsessed about their work, but women are only permitted to be obsessed about men? Barbra Streisand

Women are frightening. If you get to 41 as a man, you’re quite battle-scarred. Hugh Grant

The appalling thing is the degree of charity women are capable of. You see it all the time… love lavished on absolute fools. Love’s a charity ward, you know. Lawrence Durrell

Women are made to be loved, not understood.Oscar Wilde

I don’t hate women — they just sometimes make me mad. Eminem

If women didn’t exist, all the money in the world would have no meaning. Aristotle Onassis

Women in particular need to keep an eye on their physical and mental health, because if we’re scurrying to and from appointments and errands, we don’t have a lot of time to take care of ourselves. We need to do a better job of putting ourselves higher on our own “to do” list.Michelle Obama

All the reasonings of men are not worth one sentiment of women. Voltaire

If women ran the world we wouldn’t have wars, just intense negotiations every 28 days. Robin Williams

There are only two types of women — goddesses and doormats. Pablo Picasso

I am no bird; and no net ensnares me: I am a free human being with an independent will. Charlotte Brontë

It is past time for women to take their rightful place, side by side with men, in the rooms where the fates of peoples, where their children’s and grandchildren’s fates, are decided. Hillary Clinton

The thing women have yet to learn is nobody gives you power. You just take it. Roseanne Barr 

What NOT To Say To A Friend In Crisis

AUGUST 7, 2013 WITH 1,319 NOTES ± PERMALINK

What NOT To Say To A Friend In Crisis

It’s great to support a friend through a hard time. Being there for them, and helping them talk through it is a wonderful way to help them heal. But there are certain things that you should avoid saying if you want to keep from doing more harm than good:

 

·        “It could be a lot worse”. Of course any situation could always be a lot worse, but no one wants to hear this. Don’t downplay what they are going through by telling them that other people have it harder or that their situation isn’t all that bad. When you are upset about something it feels rotten, so just let them wallow and have their moment.

·        “There are plenty of other fish in the sea”. No one wants to hear this cliché after a breakup. Of course there are other people out there, but at the time they aren’t interested in thinking about it. Dating other people and the idea of getting back out there seems overwhelming, and it’s the last thing on their mind. They are also grieving the loss of their relationship, so give them time to do that before you start suggesting that they date other people.

·        “I know exactly how you feel”. Unless you’ve been through an identical situation, you don’t know how they feel, so don’t tell them that you do. If you can’t relate to what they’re going through just say something like, “I can only imagine how upset you must be”. Or, “I wish I knew what to say to make you feel better”. Don’t pretend that you have all the answers if you don’t.

·        “That reminds me of this thing that happened to me…”. This is not about you, so stop yourself before you launch into stories about yourself and your own experiences. Don’t turn the situation into a chance to talk about yourself. Instead, try listening to their feelings rather than doing so much talking.

·        “Hang in there”. You mean well when you say this but it’s annoying to hear when you’re going though a hard time. It sounds like you’re just trying to placate them and it doesn’t really mean anything, because they have no choice but to hang in there. Try saying something less patronizing and less generic, like, “I know you’ll get through this, and I’ll be there to help you however I can”.

·        “That happened to a friend of mine and she died/ended up alone forever/had a traumatic experience”. If something bad happens to someone, resist the urge to tell them horror stories about similar things happening to other people. If someone is sick, don’t tell them how your neighbor was hospitalized for months with the same thing only to die a slow and painful death. People feel the need to share gory details with people who are going through a hard time, and it’s unnecessary and only makes the other person feel worse. Try to be uplifting instead.

 

 

 

 

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What am I thinking?

I can't think of anything. Or, I'm thinking too fast that I can't distinguish all the ideas running inside my head. Just how a number of cars super speed through highways making it appear nothing's there. My head is aching. Music isn't helping in organizing my thoughts. It even makes harder to type these words out of the hundreds of thousands of letters pushing and colliding.  Short breaths. My heart beat speed is declining.
What was I thinking that lead to this?
First, that movie Bakit hindi ka crush ng crush mo?. During a movie, a romantic movie to be specific, I usually think of a certain person, loved one, admired one, or a simple crush but there was none. When the movie ended, I just realized even more that something is wrong with me. A part of my mind is rejecting the concept of love. I seemingly don't want to love, don't want love. Love has sadly been associated to pain, mine or others, hatred, that bitter aftertaste, and bad shitty endings.
When I was a kid, growing up from a messed up house, made me wish for a one true love, fairy tale-ish. But things have happened. I've been hurt bad near emotional paralysis the moment I trusted a person. And when I tried to give a chance to another person to change my ill perspective, I've been blamed to even giving a chance without a promise of fruitful ending. I've been hurt and I have hurt. I don't see any good in that, any good in love. People leave. I might leave. They will hurt me. I will hurt them.
As much as my faith contests to this. If truly, and I know surely, that love is good because love is a gift. Then, does that make me the negative sign multiplied to the positive love that produces a negative product.
..Wait what?
Love is insignificant right now. Should be. My thesis. My special project. Nothing is progressing. What do I do? Do I learn ASP.Net? or maybe C#? or should I fix our documentation.. or should I aimlessly start coding since we have a kind-of template.
My mind starts hurting again. I feel like crying. Maybe this would ease the pain. Lord, please help me. But, If I cry, does that bring my old depressed self again. I don't want to be a lost cause. I want to do something. But which should I fix first? Should I start what is essential - my IT special project, or do I hit what is emotionally special - my love issues. But my issues with love itself is telling me to don't think about it. That it's not worthy spending a drop of energy. Should I watch an encouraging movie to ease this madness.
I should filter my thoughts..

How my Ideal Man changed through the years.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

My Dream Guy

In order of priority:
1. Preferably smarter than me(optional)
2. Appreciates me
3. Treats me like his ONE and ONLY princess
4. Takes good care of me on my stupid careless moments
5. Plays any musical instrument and sings!!!
6. Maangas pero sweet saken >:)
7. Knows how to make me happy
8. Understanding and not easily jealous
9. Sporty
10. Anime OTAKU!
11. cute
12. Values what I value
13. Not too affectionate. tsk

NOW. Sunday, July 28, 2013

1. Loves me.
2. Will stand up for me.
3. Gentleman
4. Thoughtful and Sweet (Everybody loves gifts! haha!.and affection)
5. Smarter (Men marry down so..hahaha. Just don't intimidate me. or Ridicule me with your exceeding IQ)
6. With adequate bravery.
7. Can keep up a good conversation with me.
8. Can make me happy <3
9. Trusts me and trustworthy.
10. With Ambition.
11. Good looks are just parts of the bonus. (the hair.. :O)
12. Non-violent and respects my decisions.
13. Loves my God.

My Bookmark Folder Is Congested.

...so I decided to put my links here.

http://www.succeedsocially.com
http://easydamus.com/alignment.html
..

We have to THINK

We have to think. Calculate the risks before taking action.

My Anime Master List

Ongoing:
Naruto
Bleach
Shiki
Ao No Exorcist
Btooom!
Fairy Tail
Tonari no Kaibutsu-Kun


Completed:
Mirai Nikki
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni
Shingetsutan Tsukihime



Dropped:
K-On
K Project Season 1

Reference: Sebastian Gray

West is a student at a California high school that has found out he can fly. He, like many others with special abilities, has read Activating Evolution, Chandra Suresh's book, and has looked for others like him. He senses something different about Claire Bennet when she joins his science class.
The two get into heated arguments about teenage conformity, each discussion ending with Claire telling West to leave her alone. One time, just as Claire is about to tell him one last time, he simply whisks her up into the sky. On their first date, they spend time on the famous Hollywood sign talking about their secret lives.

Wanting Claire to accept who she is, West constantly encourages her to do acts which may cause her to be discovered by the Company.
http://heroes.wikia.com/wiki/West

A story in the making

mangyayari..
matino tlga tatay nya..
super sad lang..
eh si Phoebe..
naghahallucinate sya na binubugbog sya..

Kasi.. sa isip ni Phoebe
sinisisi sya nung father niya
tapos one yr nagsa-sulk ung father..
bago niya mabuo ung sarili niya..
sige I'll go with your idea :">
mas okay nga sgro kung may naaalala si Father kay Phoebe

Father is a loving husband and loving father.
When Mother died..
He was very sad..
I'll make them HS sweethearts maybe..
para SUPER long yung pinagsamahan nila..
Father was very very sad but he always struggle to do the daily chores for Phoebe... but when he sees Phoebe.. it triggers his longing for Mother..
because they are just too alike..
He can't eat in front of Phoebe can't take to look at her...
when He sees her he just starts shaking and crying..
which is misunderstood by Phoebe..

make one specific thing that they're alike.. like the way she smiles, or the eyes or the nose or the shape of the face..
cge, continue

She thinks her father is shaking in anger

nd blaming her inside..
the dimple and the smile maybe..
okay nb? :">

so, for a kid who knows what death implies
she then misunderstands anxiety for anger??
hmmm..
there's something wrong with this kid..
okay to okay to
kelangan convincing ang pag-sulat mo dito
kasi, kung mausisa ung magbabasa
parang inconsistent
naiintindihan ung death (which shows a lack of ignorance)
pero di naiintindihan ung feelings ng tatay (which shows too much innocence)
tpos too mature ung interpretation (which shows again a deep adult understanding)

Relationship talk ver. 3

Awesome random seemingly mature etc. Facts:

Proximity effect:

Mga taong laging kasama mo, madalas magkakagusto ka, kahit slight lang.

Gray Area:

Wala kang pinapanigan, pero it's still a choice along side black and white.

Replacement for the Lost Reinforcement:

"Pinakilig ka lang, minahal mo na agad." Yan ung tinatawag na paghahanap ng..ginawa mong panakip butas, in short. Sabihin natin na genuine yang feelings mo pero may part na pagkiling sayo because of your 

1.) characteristics, personality 2.) awa

Pero nung time na un, ang context mo you're undergoing postbreakup

Post Breakup Syndrome:

Yung feeling na kunyari tinuturuan kang lumangoy, may naka-hawak pa sayo kaso iniwan ka. It's either matuto kang lumangoy on your own to save yourself or humanap ka ng kakapitan na iba, thus foregoing ung fact na pwede kang matuto from it. Pero pag kumapit ka sa iba, hindi ka natutong lumangoy.

Plunging to various ideas is great, but be prepared.

I like the idea of loving, madali lang magmahal. Pag mahal mo tlga isang tao mamamaintain mo yan.

kaya nga may priorities; sometimes to the detriment of yourself.

You can always manage yourself; Pag gusto may paraan; pero I have my priorities.

Kaya nga gusto ko fling lang, I get affirmations, I get sweet talks, without relationships.

Keep calm and move on. Life goes on eh.

Best way to start a new relationship is ung feeling na blank slate ka.......sa lahat ng bitter feelings kung hindi bitter feelings, at least ung "hurt". In a way nagiging selfish ka kapag pinatulan mo ung sumasalo sayo habang nagmomove on ka. Clinging desperately to someone pag may kailangan ka lang ifulfill na emotional needs mo

pag di mo kailangan, discarded sa tabi. Wag kang maging egocentric. Isipin mo na lang kung ikaw ginanyan.

Anong mararamdaman mo?

Gugustuhin mo ba yan mangyari sayo?

Yan problema ng mundo eh, we make certain actions without thinking ano yung pwedeng mangyari sa iba. Or, what we would have felt kung sa atin ginawa ung action na un.

"Di ko b sya pde bigyan ng chance? To make me fall in love?"

That's a desperate attempt to salvage what's left of your relationship. Mainlove ka pag sure ka nang wala ka nang masyadong emotional baggage na bibitbitin sa next relationship mo. That means, hindi ka nakasabit sa isang semi-relationship

Go flourish on your own first. You'd have to resolve your issues first.

Why do you always want to love?

"I want that feeling of being protected and cared for..and vice versa"

Do you have conditions in loving or falling in love?

"Normally.. they just have to be extra nice to me. The high ambitions and IQ.. is the duration test how long I'd be in love. And, I can also be in love just with a list of few coincidences and similarities."

Can you define what an unconditional love is?

"You'll love that person under any circumstances no matter who or what he is?"

When thinking about the "real thing", consider that without thinking that you could change a person.

You don't change a person.

We are young, a lot of things could happen.

--DMAP

Outside the Dirt Castle

In a palace painted of blues and shadows;

With walls too long deprived of radiance;

I, on a throne of lead and papers;

Left with no sense of time, or any;

Leaving hunger, the teller of passing time;

Heavy, my growing crown of thread is heavy;

Dusts that glimmer and veil my beauty;

Hey, Mr. Puppet, does it suit me?

I too would know but all is shaded;

As I look to the sky of bricks and binder;

Crumble, grind and tumble upon the roofing;

A disk with five oblongs, descending;

Must this be a hand? Oh, Good Fortune!

At last, a guest; a human, perhaps;

Pardon stands upon the midnight's open lid;

This young man clad in shining metal clothing;

Pulled me out and brought me to dawning;

Light pierced from behind sailing cottons;

I'm no princess; a shame, a bother;

My palace was but a hole under a boulder;

Puppets steered by my self-brought, weak delusions;

Fixed jams from moss and purple wormies;

A kingdom built upon soil and dirt;

Truth is nothing but an ugly farce;

When knowledge I didn't have, has made me scarce.

Credits to Regine and Renz for lending a hand <3. My purple wormies.